Friday, October 12, 2007

i can't shake this feeling

I've been back from Africa for 11 weeks.

Last week, I was watching Life is Wild, a show "supposedly" set in South Africa about a family that picks up their life and moves there to try to become a family again.

Trust me, it wasn't the Africa I know and love. However, towards the end of the show, my Africa song started playing.

And I lost it. I sat in my living room and bawled like a little baby.

I miss Africa, more importantly, I miss Kenya. I miss the kids I interacted with, I miss the friends I made, I miss Kym. I still smell Kenya every where I go. I feel like I'm losing parts of the story I knew to be there. I feel like I'm missing a piece of myself and there are times when I listen to my soundtrack that I made for Kenya and I still tear up.

The dates have been set for the 2008 trip and I am seriously reconsidering going. My heart aches for Kenya and I don't know what to do about it here in the States.

What do you do when you miss the place that makes you feel most like you?


J said...

Umm.. You are going to hate me for this, but moving is an option. Especially if it completes you!

ChristieJo said...

you go where God and your heart are telling you to go. though it might make annual dinner slightly harder to plan.

Kristenanne said...

holy moses...the answer my friend isn't blowing in the wind or I would have caught it and sent it to you on a eagles wing. Sorry for the poetry...I don't know how to answer your question because it means stepping up and answering my own.