Tuesday, September 26, 2006

“You owe it to everyone you love (including yourself) to find pockets of tranquility in your busy world. -- Anonymous

Trust me, my days are incredibly busy.

And finding tranquility is hard to come by. I'm still working the two jobs, still trying not to lose my mind and still trying to find a balance of life.

My friends, my dear beautiful friends, are helping me stay sane, through pizza and beer, shopping, movies and love. I love having them in my life.

But it's not easy to find tranquility when you are accidentally running into a pole because you have so much on your mind.

However, the vacation starts in 9 days...Seattle here I come...and I can't wait.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

I once I had a dream about Matthew Perry

He took me to prom...And still think he is hot. And I'm so glad he is back.

I watched the first episode of Studio 60 on Sunset Strip. I loved it. I loved the writing, the acting, the direction, I loved the set...I feel like a piece of "The West Wing" has re-entered my living room.

I can't wait for this season of this show...it's amazing. You need to check it out.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Help me understand how this is easier...

As I was watching tv tonight, I saw an ad for this. I don't quite understand how this is any easier than just creating a double boiler.

I saw two movies this weekend "The Last Kiss" and "Gridiron Gang". "last kiss" is totally worth seeing..."gang" is not.

And, I can't stop playing my Fray cd in my car...I especially can't stop playing this song (mostly because I want it to be true in my own life):

Look After You

If I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh,
Be my baby
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh
Be my Baby
I'll look after you
And I'll look after you

If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
She says most assuredly

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh
be my baby
I'll look after you

It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

yes, you are right, free tickets are the best

picture from my new friend DMBFreakNo41 at flickr:

Yesterday while I was at work, I heard a rumor that the 4 box tickets to the Pepsi Center were available that night. So, I did what any smart person would do...I asked if I could have them. I was the first person to ask, so if I got the tickets, I would get all four.

Unfortunately, someone took 2 of the tickets, but gave me the other 2, as appreciation of all the hard work I've done recently.

That's right, I got 2 free box seats to see Dave Matthews.

It was amazing. My friend Katie and I went together and had a great time. I love spending time with her. It was amazing that I had the opportunity to see Dave...It rocked.

and now, next weekend, J and I get to see Guster in the 7th row. Giddy up...the month of concerts continues.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

number 84

I didn't sleep well last night. I had this weird sensation with my brain and was up for about an 1 1/2 hours. Thankfully, I did get back to sleep.

I was up at 7:00 am, trying to prepare for my race. I drank a nalgene of water and ate as much of a Clif Bar that I could. I walked over to BA's at 8:30. She had to remind me to breathe deep and loosen up my arms.

We eventually got to Cheesman Park, checked in and walked around. So many organizations out and supporting this cause. We kicked off at 10:00 am, after watching some gay men doing aerobics at the front of the stage.

I finished the race. I wasn't first, but that wasn't what was important to me. What was important was for me to finish. And I did. I ran a majority of my first 5k and realized that I want to do it again. So, I'm looking for something to run at the end of October. Maybe I'll improve my time.

After showering and sharing the news with my parents, we (BA, the Sheps, Maria, and J) went to the Cricket to celebrate. I cam home and crashed afterward. I awoke from my nap like was drunk...and seriously, I only had one beer at lunch.

I feel so proud of myself. I did something that was on my list of things to do for the last 4 years. And I'm really proud of myself.

So thank you to all my sponsors who helped me raise $300 for the Colorado AIDS Project, to BA who ran/walked ever step with me and got me to relax, and to Beth, Frank, Maria, and J who helped celebrate this accomplishment with me after it was all said and done...

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Don't you remember the JC Penny's Catalog?

In the mail today, I received a mini catalog from JC Penny's. I don't shop at Penny's, I have no idea how I ended up on their mailing list.

But as I was reading through it, I realized that one of my favorite memories from my childhood is going to my grandparents house and flipping through the catalog...the BIG catalog.

I would pick out furniture, clothing, toys, everything I wanted when I was older. I felt like I could live in my dream world through that catalog. Laying on the floor, while my grandparents watched their soaps (different from the soaps I watched at the pool a couple of weeks ago), I was able to dream about what I could be like.

I miss those moments of just being a kid where everything was simpler, easier, less complicated.

By the way, the reason I'm home tonight, posting at 8:14 pm isn't because I couldn't go out, I was choosing to stay home in light of my race tomorrow. One more day for you to sponsor me: http://AIDSWalkandRunColorado.kintera.org/mes9193

Thursday, September 07, 2006

"do you really think you can change?" "I'm still breathing, aren't I?"

This is a line from Zach Braff's new movie. It feels apropos in my recent days. That change can come in any direction, in any movement. That some changes forces life to change, and while it is sad, and devastating, at the same time, it's what is needed.

Being vague has never been my strong suite...I've always wanted to be the one who says what they mean, speak truth, wanting my voice to be heard. Why hide behind lies, threats, unspoken vibes when the truth can and will set you free.

While my blog doesn't seem fully appropriate to voice some of what's really going through my mind, I know that I know. That my voice is heard amongst the Trinity and they love it. And while there are moments where I share it here, in my community of people who fully love me, who encourage me to listen to my intution, who encourage me to listen to the Trinity.

So, do I really think I can change?

I'm still breathing...

And based upon the last 2 months where I have felt free, more alive, more me, I can only assume that the next year in Denver will allow me to be me...and it's going to be fabulous.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Why my computer is changing my life...

Yesterday, I received my new computer....and I LOVE IT!! While I haven't discovered everything on it yet (like the guitar, I have no idea what it does or if it's something I can't wait to use), I love it. The screen is beautiful, the keyboard is awesome...it changes the way I am on my internet.

So, here's to my new computer...I can't wait to take it for a spin!

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Best Labor Day EVER!

On Friday night, we met at Dave and Sara's to take off for probably the last camping trip of the season. The rain was coming down and we hoped it wouldn't rain all weekend. We enjoyed some Taco John's on the way up and then got to our site. Where you ask? Well, we went to Lake Mcconaughy in Nebraska. Did you know that 3 hours away from Denver you can find a kickass beach and a beautiful lake?

Oh my gosh...IT WAS AMAZING!!

Saturday we got up, had a wonderful breakfast and changed into our suits. We headed toward the beach, put up the sand volleyball net and went to town. It was amazing. The sun was out, I took a nap with the beautiful Hayden on my chest. We had lunch on the beach...it was perfect.

Sara, Maria, and I drove into town to get more beer, more ice and soda...it felt good to go into town.

Sunday was equally as fun. Instead of rushing out like we normally do on camping trips, we enjoyed our time. We played in the lake, we played more beach volleyball, we just enjoyed the last day of summer. I finally have the tan I've been wanting all summer long.

Monday involved buying my ski pass (since I bought skis on Friday) and playing some frisbee golf. I was in bed by 8:40 last night because I was exhausted.

This week should be fairly low key. Nothing major, except my run on Sunday. Please sponsor me...you can click here to donate. I'm almost to my goal! The run starts at 10:00 am on Sunday...send me good vibes.

Also, my computer should be here today...I can't wait!