Thursday, September 23, 2004
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
That was until I decided to try it...
Right now, I am bidding on something. I'm so freaking nervous, that I don't know what do with myself and I can't tear myself away from the computer. I keep rechecking to see if I have won. I've done laundry, I've taken a shower, I've balanced my checkbook, I've ordered my textbooks for the next quarter (and those weren't all that exciting either). I could clean my room, but in the time it would take to get started, the sale would be done. I think I am going to win. But I am beside myself waiting for that moment.
My sister is an eBay fanatic. She buys stuff, she sells stuff, she probably is one of the sellers that has those fun objects next to her cute screen name. As for me, I have a big fat zero next to mine because I'm a newbie.
And if I'm honest, I'm only blogging right now because I need something to calm me down. I have three minutes left. I'm afraid that if I do win, I'll want to buy more. And the only other thing I really want is an old school Nintendo. Now that would be fun. But I can't focus on anything right now.
AHHH!! One minute, 19 seconds....56 seconds....I can feel my ulcer forming and shaping inside my stomach (as if I don't have enough digestional problems as is)
I WON!! I WON! I never win! Well, that's not true. Once in middle school, in Kansas City, there was a time when Kiss 107.3 had a chance for you to kiss a car and if you kissed it the longest, you won. I wasn't old enough, but I got 5 cds. And I won the Bands Reunited contest here in Chicago and got $100 gift certificate to VH1.com.
So, now I wait for my item to arrive. I can't wait...but I don't think I'll do eBay any time soon. I need to recover from my first experience.
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Friends, New Orleans is fine, my family is fine, and if you want more information on a city I love dearly, check out this article from MSNBC http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/6017042/
Have a great weekend...I'll be at the grand opening of our new huge building, and you can see it here: www.willowcreek.org
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
In other news, my life is chaotic. I was talking with my friend Allison last night, and I told her, I don't know if I had ever been through such a year of chaos and change. And I realized as I said that, I probably had, but never in my life had I been able to deal with it all in a healthy fashion. I'm still learning how to grieve, I'm still learning it's okay to be angry, but I can handle change much more now. I could list them all but here are just a few:
- I changed jobs (well, places where I am doing my internship, which basically was a job change)
- I changed offices (and yes the window is a nice change of pace, even if it is a little one)
- People I am extremely close to in the internship moved on and graduated
- Elevate (my old ministry) was turned upside down
- Oasis and Champions (my new ministry) are in constant change
- There is a huge new freakin' building that was built in front of my eyes and it changes the way I am able to do ministry.
- We have a new check in system with computers that don't work
See and that's only a few...I took a vacation to Denver, which was awesome and I loved it, but I feel like since my ministry kicked off on Monday (that's right, September 13th) I need another vacation. My desk is a mess, my planner is a mess, my car is a mess, which all means that I'm not taking time to slow down. The director of the internship has an acronym H.A.L.T. (Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired) and if you are any of these, you need to halt and take some time for yourself. Except I've changed it to C.A.L.T. (which doesn't make sense, but if I changed it to talc, that would just be weird). Instead of being hungry, angry, lonely or tired, I know I need to stop when I am cluttered, angry, lonely or tired. I'm hoping this weekend, I'll have some time to relax, which it looks like Saturday and Sunday for the most part will be okay and I'll be able to C.A.L.T.
On a different front, I think I'm breaking away from the good ol'Franklin Planner and buying a pocket pc (a.k.a.-palm pilot). It's just so bulky and I hate the fact I have to erase and/or white out when I have to change things. Plus, I would like to use my Outlook a little more often. Who knows, by the time I write next, maybe I'll have one.
Yes, I know Kansas State lost last weekend...I still have faith.
No, I haven't found a dance class yet...I think that's going to be my search this weekend.
Thursday, September 09, 2004
For multiple hours.
I have been known in the past to watch from 6 pm till 10:30 pm and if you are lucky, I'll stay up till 11:30 just to watch a bit more. However, that all changed last May.
On May 9, 2004, my life changed and a part of me died. Well, that's a little over dramatic (which I know I enjoy being from time to time), but it's true. After 10 years of faithfully devoting myself to Thursday nights at 7 pm, "Friends" finally ended. I felt a little like my soul was ending and I needed to say good bye to six of my closest friends. It was sad (in fact the whole month of May was sad, but that's for a different post). I knew I still had "Will and Grace", "ER" and "The Apprentice" to watch, but it wouldn't be the same.
Now tonight, I watched "Joey". I laughed, I almost cried, and I realized that my Thursday nights will no longer be the same. It's still the same Joey that I grew to love after 10 years, but I'm still waiting for Monica or Ross to enter the picture. I'm still waiting for the coffee shop to appear in a scene, and I'm still waiting for a chick and a duck to enter the picture. Which by the way, where did they go since Chandelor gave them to Joey because of the twins???
Thursday nights will still be my night to watch thousands of hours of tv, but with "The OC" moving to Thursday nights, will I still be dedicated to NBC, or will my VCR become used more often than it is right now? I really do think "Joey" has a shot to make it, like my friend Kochie said, it will just require people to realize that it isn't the same. I just don't know if I'm ready to accept this change quite yet...
Sunday, September 05, 2004
In 1998, I began to fall in love with college football. I went to my first football game at the KSU Stadium to see the Kansas State Wildcats defeat a small school and I was hooked. I went to almost every single home game during my college career. I saw the Wildcats defeat Nebraska at home twice. I helped tear down the "indestructible" goal post and watch them be carried into Aggieville. I've laughed, cried, hugged random people, and watch these Wildcats of mine go on to write history. I love them and they are forever part of my life. Some people claim that I am a fanatic, but I love this team. I love Bill Snyder and the team he has created. I love Manhattan in the middle of the fall while game day is going on. I've never felt a city such defeat and joy in the same week and know that 20,000 students as well as alumni and fans around the country are cheering on the Wildcats. Our schedule this year looks good. I'm worried about what will happen and whether or not we can defend our Big XII title without a definite quarterback. I'm curious to know if Darren Sproles win the Heisman trophy. I wonder which bowl we will play in December or January.
Have you caught the spirit of college football? If not, let me know...I can help!
Friday, September 03, 2004
We drove 15 hours from Chicago to Denver. Have you driven through Nebraska before? What a terrible state (and I'm not just saying that because I don't like the University of Nebraska)! There is nothing redeeming about the state. Well, I take that back. We stopped in Lincoln for lunch and we ate Sonic. I love that place so much. It really does speak love to my soul. We got into Denver and I crashed because I was so tired from the night before and driving for 15 hours. Yesterday we got to meet the Radius Church family and while I was helping make dinner (I was using a mallet to thin out the chicken breasts), I whacked my index finger. It hurt so freaking much...but I don't think I am going to lose the nail. We are planning on going hiking tomorrow and who knows what Sunday will hold for us, but I definitely needed this vacation. I've realized more and more that my rhythm of life must include times when I can just get away and relax and disconnect. I'm hoping my next vacation will be in the spring and I would love to take one after I graduate.
Here's something fun: I'm planning on taking dance classes when I get back. I can't wait. I danced for 9 years, it was and still is a part of my soul. I'm scared out of my mind that I will fall on my face and make a fool of myself, but this is something I have shut off inside of me and I need to reclaim it. I need to get the ballerina out of the closet and back on the dance floor. I'll keep you posted on how this goes and if you are curious to how I decided to start this again, the story is much more personal than something I would share here, so you'll just have to email me.
Pictures will be coming soon...wait till Tuesday when I can upload them and publish them. Until then, I'm enjoying the cloudy day in Denver, listening to David Gray, and loving on an adorable chocolate lab...