Friday, February 23, 2007

Love is whatever you can still betray ... Betrayal can only happen if you love. -- John LeCarre

While driving into work this morning, I started thinking about betrayal. Why people betray one another? Why people sabotage relationships and why, ultimately, I do it too...

In the last 3 years, I think I've experienced more betrayal than I ever had in my entire life. It started during a leadership conflict I had that scared me out of my mind. Watching someone I thought was my friend go behind my back and take something up with leadership, that was painful. However, I had no idea that was only the beginning.

While I chose out of friendships, much like others had in my life, I didn't realize that I was playing a part in the betrayal. That I too was making the choice to betray.

It obviously comes down to people trying to secure their own good. I want the good in my life to stay good and I'll go to extremes trying to protect it. So, why do we betray those we claim we love and even like? Because of self-protection...and to be honest, I'm tired of it...

2 comments:

Sara said...

So beautiful my friend! I'm so glad you're in my life :) I love you!

Amie said...

If it helps at all, I am intimately acquainted with betrayal as well...and yes it sucks but you can survive it...and become stronger because of it. The hardest thing is not letting it jade all of the relationships in your life...that is one I have to fight against almost daily.