Thursday, July 14, 2011

I feel really lucky

At the beginning of the year, my friends E, J and I sat around my dining room table and dreamed. We dreamed for what we wanted out of this year. I sat with a white poster board and a stack of magazines.

This is what I have hanging in my bedroom, on the wall so it's the first thing I see when I get up and what I stare at while deciding what to wear for the day. Overall, I wanted a new me. I wanted a new job, I wanted to be healthier, I wanted to camp, I wanted a vacation, I wanted to restore my balance.

Here we are over 6 months through the year. I have an amazing new job, that I am realizing more and more that I love. I am getting healthier. I go to the gym 5 days a week. I went on an amazing vacation. I wanted to grow in my self-confidence and I wanted to believe in myself. I am beginning to feel more and more balanced.

Except in one area.

The entire upper left hand corner of my vision board is about love. About falling in love, about marriage, about finding someone to do this journey with. I'm not going to lie, for the first time in a long time, I went on a date (that's not news, I've been dating a lot in the last 2 years) and I walked away from the date thinking to myself that I'm really happy being single and that if I find someone, I'd like him to fit into my life easily and me into his.

So maybe this year was more for me to focus on my career, my health, my general well-being. Maybe all that needed to fall into place before I could focus on love.

And truthfully, now that everything else appears to be in place, I'm ready for the next step. We'll see what happens during this last part of the year.

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