Preface: I will be cynical at some point in this post

A friend sent this to me today (with the end stating that if I didn't send this, I would have bad luck for-eve-r (Yeah Right)


Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says,".....that's her."

I'm beginning to believe this man doesn't exist...

blowing the money at the movies

It's almost November (yes, November, I don't know where the year went either), which means good movies are finally around the corner. And by looking at the schedule, I will be at the movies almost every single weekend.

Just check out this list:

Chicken Little
The Weather Man
Jarhead
Derailed
Shopgirl
Walk the Line
Rent
Brokeback Mountain
The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe
Memoirs of a Geisha
The Family Stone
Fun with Dick and Jane

if you care to join me for any of these, let me know...i'd enjoy the company

this is how I feel...

"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, not small, but circumscribed. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void. "
-from You've Got Mail

did anyone see Gray's last night?

So slowly, Gray's Anatomy is becoming my new favorite show. And while I agree with Dooce that it is Felicity with doctors, but still, it's a-mazing story line and acting is so good.

But did you happen to see last night's episode? The funny thing, it was the three female doctors complaining about men. And for a second there, I felt like this was my life. Let me tell you why...I had a great date on Friday night (while it started off slow, it ended up going really well). Good conversation, great drinks, it by far was a good night. But then, he hasn't called. And I know the rules, I've read the book, but still it is so frustrating. I wish he would call and ask to get together again. I wish I could show him a little bit more of my life and the crazy people I interact with on a daily basis. I wish I could see more of his. But he hasn't called and perhaps the funniest scene in last night's episode is when the two doctors are stuck in the elevator and George says to Alex "She shaved her legs for you and you didn't move on it, and then I hear about it, so yes it is my problem".

I just don't think guys quite understand what a big deal it is for us to get ready and then for us to wait on a single call (or lack thereof) for us to know what's going on...

random

TWENTY RANDOM THINGS ABOUT Meghan

1. I secretly miss Kansas City from time to time.
2. I had an imaginary friend named Goodie when I was younger who eventually got "hit" by a fire truck.
3. I can't keep a manicure to save my life.
4. I would rather drink tomato juice than orange
5. Scary movies frighten me to death and I refuse to see them (I was traumatized as a small child with them).
6. I eventually want to move back to the south, renovate an old plantation and open up a bed and breakfast.
7. The only Christian music I have on my iPod is worship cds...other Christian music tweaks my liberal theology
8. and yes, I have liberal theology
9. I love MTV and strongly believe they put subliminal messages in their shows to get you hooked
10. My eyes change colors based upon what I am wearing...
11. I've broken the same wrist twice because of roller skates and sprained my ankle due to basketball
12. I secretly love music that reminds me of old school country like Johnny Cash
13. I've had glasses since the 3rd grade when I begged my parents for them and now I wish I had perfect eye sight.
14. I have the tendency to cry at everything, including sappy disney movies (just ask viv and nicky about it)
15. When I'm sad and lonely, I'd rather be with anyone who knows me deeply than with people I just met
16. I wish I could wear flip flops every day of the year
17. I have a speech impediment...my str always have an h stuck in there which caused my junior high ministry staff to mock me
18. I always get into shows during their third or fourth season (case and point West Wing)
19. I love to put pickles on my grill cheese
20. I struggle deeply that I will end up alone and being eaten by dogs...just like Bridget Jones

A saga begins...

I really couldn't think of a title for this post, so this works...

First of all, I'd like to thank Dooce for putting into words for how I feel so connected to "Gray's Anatomy". Yes, it is like Felicity but with doctors...ahh...so true, so true.


Point B: Noah Wylie and his wife had a baby girl and named her Auden...THEY TOTALLY STOLE MY NEW FAVORITE BABY NAME! I hadn't even told people that I liked it and they took it...Bastards!

Roman Numeral III: My iPod has been acting up recently, playing certain songs for 30 seconds and then switching to a different one. I've done everything they've told me to do and it's still not right...I don't want a new iPod with the possibilities of video watching....I WANT MY OLD IPOD TO WORK.

thus begins my Wednesday.

Playing on Repeat

I'm currently playing the following song on repeat, with the volume turned up, and I can't quite figure out what my soul is trying to tell me. If you can figure it out, I'm taking suggestions...

come pick me up by ryan adams

When they call your name

Will you walk right up

With a smile on your face

Or will you cower in fear

In your favorite sweater

With an old love letter

I wish you would

I wish you would

Come pick me up

Take me out

F**k me up

Steal my records

Screw all my friends

They're all full of shit

With a smile on your face

And then do it again

I wish you would

When you're walking downtown

Do you wish I was there

Do you wish it was me

With the windows clear and the mannequins eyes

Do they all look like mine

You know you could I wish you would

Come pick me up

Take me out

F**k me up

Steal my records

Screw all my friends behind my back

With a smile on your face

And then do it again

I wish you would

I wish you'd make up my bed

So I could make up my mind

Try it for sleeping instead

Maybe you'll rest sometime

I wish I could

Perhaps it is time to use the lesson Nancy Reagan taught us

I came across this article today....

JUST SAY NO lady...you are not a baby making machine...

YIKES!

THIS IS JUST SICK AND WRONG

(insert gagging noise here)

I believe that some people should not be able to reproduce. I know some might think that of me, but that's fine, it's not happening any time soon. People that I believe belong on this list are Britney and Kevin, Paris Hilton and her latest boy toy and now this news just broke.



Sick and wrong I tell you...SICK AND WRONG!

3 post in 1 day...relax, it isn't going to happen every day

I just checked Nicky's site, which always pushes me to think and rethink and then look at the situation from a new vantage point and I realized that:

a) he's updated his blog

and

2) I'm a link...wow...I feel so privileged...


on a complete side note, i've taken a H-U-G-E step in the dating world...prepare for great blog entries.

Boredom

10 years ago I was:
15 years old
a sophomore in high school
discovering Ichthus
Working at the Gap
In love with Jeff Anderson and Curt Peterson

5 years ago I was:
20 years old
starting my 2nd year of college
living in the Girl's Lighthouse
still wrestling with the shame of my freshman year
in love with Jordan Reed

1 year ago I was:
living in Cary, IL
Working with Oasis and Champions
grieving, grieving, grieving
Falling for one of my leaders...
Trying to figure out where in the hell I would live in a year

Yesterday I:
Cleaned my apartment from top to bottom
Did laundry
had a yummy Vanilla Latte from the Perk
Talked with Cookie
Called Leah

5 snacks I enjoy:
chocolate covered pretzels (I think it has something to do with the salty/sweet)
peaches
cherry tomatoes
bread and butter
melted velvetta and chips

5 songs I know all the words to:
"Anna Begins" by Counting Crows
"Fair" by Remy Zero
"Magnolia Mountain" by Ryan Adams
"The One you Love" by Rufus Wainwright
"Gone" by Ben Folds

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:
Go on a backpack trip through Europe
Buy a cool house, then renovate it
Join the Peace Corp
Get another degree
Take my best friend on a trip

5 places I would run away to:
frontier Ranch
Manhattan, KS
Hawaii
Cookie's House
London

5 Things I will NEVER wear:
Uggs
Daisy Dukes
a poncho
the shirt to the band I'm going to see
a thong bikini

5 favorite TV shows:
OC
Scrubs
Arrested Development
Friends
Grey's Anatomy

5 bad habits:
not doing my dishes right away
staring
not putting away my clothes in the hamper (yes, I realize they are clean, but it's so much work)
my self contempt
jealousy

5 biggest joys:
tomorrow
laughing till my sides hurt
drinking Boulevard Beer
a Soy Chai from the bucks on the perfect fall day in denver
the perfect fall day in denver

5 fictional characters I would date:
John Dorian (from Scrubs)
Jim Halpert (from the office)
Michael Bluth (from Arrested Development)
Andrew Largeman (from Garden State)
Dr. Derek Shepherd (from Grey's Anatomy)

5 people I tag to do this:
Kristen
Vicki
Bri
Craig
you silly

OMG!

Have you seen this site? YES!...this is so awesome...I LOVE IT and can waste multiple hours looking at it...

To do then now would be retro. To do then then was very now-tro, if you will

The last two nights, A Mighty Wind has been on Comdey Central (god, I love having "real" cable). I've loved watching one of my favorite movies on cable and hearing some of the best lines ever.

I decided that I would get one of those lines from IMDB and then I found something very interesting...


So, after doing some investigation, I found out that this is in production and I cannot wait...maybe I'll get around to finally watching "Waiting for Guffman" by the time this comes out.

Thank you Christopher Guest for being so freakin' funny...It's awesome!

I KNOW!

Yesterday was a pretty good day. Work is slowly coming together, the weather was decent (I'm beginning to believe that Denver is as close to perfect weather wise as a place can get) and then there was the evening.

Jim, Maria and I knew we wanted to see Wicked, but 1) it was sold out and B) Maria couldn't join us. So Jim stood in line for the Wicked lottery. They only hand out 24 tickets each night. These aren't the best seats in the house, but it's the opportunity to see the show. I arrived downtown, and found parking in a lot right away, but the stupid thing wouldn't print my receipt and I was worried about being towed. I called a number, the random Australian I met called a number and I was assured that I wouldn't be towed.

Right as I walked up, Jim was adding his name to the lottery, so I was able to put mine in as well. We stood around for about 20 minutes and then the lottery started. They call your name, they verify your id and then you pay. They did this 10 times (and one group of people won twice...bastards). Then they called Jim's name! I KNOW! So, I went to Chili's, he went home and changed and we were able to see my favorite musical (sort of...we were in the very first row of the theater, on the corner, so they weren't the best seats in the house, but I had seen it before and it was so good for my soul...I needed this night). I know Craig (the wonderful Mr. Joseph) doesn't like it, but I'm willing to stake my ground in how much I love that show.

In other news, there was a "dance-off" in Wichita in which two people were arrested and someone needed stitches. I haven't laughed that hard at the news in a while.

If you are bored on Monday nights, perhaps you should watch the best show on TV (Scrubs is off the air right now, so yes, this is the best show out there).

Okay, I should get back to work...

MIA No longer

Who would have guessed that working a full time job, Radius, and life in general would one day get in the way of me posting every single day? Not that I'm blaming anyone...at least I'm not as MIA as this person (who, I'm getting ready to send out smoke signals because I'm so worried).

Anyways, let me do a quick overview on my last couple of week:
1. I'm on football overload. I know that must mean something but after last Saturday of watching K-State vs. Marshall, Norte Dame vs. Michigan, Iowa vs Iowa State, and Texas vs Ohio State in one sitting....I'm overwhelmed. Lots of good laughs and even better food, but no more...not at least until next week.

2. I'm in the process of making my job permanent. It keeps me on my toes, doesn't drain me and I sought lots of wise counsel on making it happen...2 weeks vacation and benefits...FINALLY.

3. My beautiful best friend had a beautiful baby girl, a much welcomed addition to her beautiful family....I love them all and can't wait to see them!





4. Making a town home requires me finding a radio station...I've found an awesome one that comes from Boulder. Thank you KBCO for hleping me transition into making Denver home.

Otherwise, we are getting for the retreat in October, I'm looking into becoming a doula(something I've wanted to do since college) and since I had that one really decent first date right before my grandmother passed, I want to go on another...

I know it's short, but hopefully more tomorrow, I've got to get to the bank before BA drops off my "new" chair.

PS-
Since Nicky enjoyed being in the blog last time I mentioned him, I'd like to contest to his comment that because someone didn't like Wedding Crashers that they don't have a soul. I still hold this position...you can argue with me all you want, but it's true.

Please help

Picture courtesy of www.nola.com

Many of you have asked about my family in New Orleans. Thankfully they are okay. They escaped to Houston, Dallas, and Lafayette and are safe and sound. However, we see the devastation that has happened to so many people. If you feel like donating, Habitat for Humanity is helping and you can click here to help them.

This by far is one of the saddest things I have ever seen, simply because I call New Orleans part of my home. Please help, please keep them in your thoughts and prayers...

Haulin' ass out of town

I arrived in New Orleans on Thursday morning. Nicky drove me to the airport and had me laughing the entire way. I was able to tell him about my date (which I thought was successful, and hopefully, he'll call me back), he was able to give his theory on Bon Jovi's new song (it lures you in with the riff from "Livin' on a prayer, but then switches it up on you). Free tv and a 2 hour flight later, I arrived in New Orleans. The humidity hit me like a ton of bricks. We (my dad, brother and I) headed to the church to pick up a scripture that I was going to read during the funeral. We stopped, had a bowl of gumbo and then went back to the airport to pick up my uncle.

Friday morning was low key and the wake was Friday night. That wasn't the Grammy I knew. She had lost so much weight since the stroke...her hands were tightly clasped...it wasn't her...I sat there in wonder of what had happened, how everyone was reacting, and was extremely sad. Then my sister told this amazing story:

When my sister found out about my grandmother, she decided to take her two kids to her mother in law's so she could have some time to herself. When my niece asked what was wrong, my sister replied that she was going to miss Grammy. My niece paused and then said "well, mommy, I hear Grammy saying that she is going to miss you more." After having a few hours to herself, my sister and her friend went to pick up my niece and nephew and grab McDonalds for dinner. The kids wanted their toys and Julie (my sister's friend) pulled them out of the bag. Julie turned to Shelley and said you aren't going to believe this. The toy that night was a Pegasus, the symbol to the Mardi Gras carnival club my grandparents had founded almost 50 years ago.

After some tears and some hugs, we headed back to the hotel. Saturday morning, we arrived at the funeral home and went to the church. We buried my grandmother under the hot sun and then went to my aunt and uncle's house for lunch. It was there that we discovered how serious Katrina was going to be and we left to make decisions.

My brothers and nephew were going to leave bright and early on Sunday morning. I had a flight out Sunday afternoon, and my parents were going to leave on Sunday evening. The flights were canceled and the airport was closed about an hour after we arrived. So, what else could we do but join in with the 1 million people who were told to "haul ass out of New Orleans". My parents, who were born and raised in New Orleans had never seen anything like it. A 3 hour typical drive to Jackson took 7 and we arrived in Arkansas at 9:30 pm. We stopped, slept and got back on the road Monday morning. We got into Kansas City at 4 pm on Monday and I flew out at 6:15 pm. I finally got back to Denver and decided that I needed today to recover.

I'm currently sitting in my favorite coffee shop, enjoying a bagel, a latte and the "Garden State" soundtrack. It's what my souls needs. And this afternoon will be spent with Andy and that's what I need to. I need to be around someone who loves me deeply, who I love deeply, where everything is understood and where for the first time since I've been in Denver simply be loved upon in a way that I'm use to.

Otherwise, I'm just waiting to see what the week holds...and hopefully, I can get through some of the grieving that I need to.

to my Grammy

Edwina Gallinghouse Smith

March 16, 1922 - August 23, 2005

with much love,

meggie

"Thanks for your ass"

Preface: The title of this blog is in reference to something Christie said over the weekend...I will not discuss it any further.

I realize I have been missing in action. It was unintentional, but good. I've switched jobs (yes, I'm still temping, and no, I haven't had any luck finding something permanent) and my fear at all my jobs is that they are watching my every move on the computer. There is enough of me not to care, but still some that is afraid that they will fire me. I spent some time at the most boring conference ever, left the oil & gas world and have moved into the world of banking. Where last week, I wore a dress with my jean jacket over it and my flip flops, thinking it was appropriate. I was wrong and was forced (by shame and shame alone) to go out to Target and buy shoes I already owned and take of my jean jacket. I didn't know that the business world was so strick.

My friend Christie came in town this weekend, which was amazing. Life currently is hard, making transitions, settling in, trying to figure out who is safe and it was just nice to have someone who understands me, knows me and loves me. We danced hard at Lip Gloss, laughed hard after Bender's, and have some great memories from her time here. I can't wait to see her again in October and then for our annual dinner in December. It's just nice to have someone who is so similar to me...it's scary at times.

Prior to this week, I was camping in Riffle State Park (3 hours west of Denver). It was my very first time ever camping, so I was a little hesitant. But once I got the hang of peeing in the woods, we had a great time. We hiked around the falls, ate amazing food, and almost went to the Riffle Fair. All I have to say is the idiot who claimed someone was thrashing near the road needs to get a life...You cannot have our spot.

Life is crazy and hard right now. I was shocked this week and tweaked all within a couple of days. I'm eating out of comfort and sleeping because that's what you do when you are depressed. I'm busy, lonely, and in need of training for my 5-k in October. Otherwise, I'm holding onto the only thing I can right now and that's the Trinity...but barely.

click to see photos from the camping trip.

This begins fall

I love fall...it's my favorite season. School supplies filling the shelves, new backpacks are being purchased, book orders are being placed...

But the ultimate indicator that fall is approaching is this. I'm ready, willing, and enthused about the fall season.

Let's go Cats! I have faith in you this season!